i was literally a nobody at my uncle’s birthday party tonight.
they see how much i’ve failed to live up to their expectations. (this aunt and uncle have tried to help me with internships several times, but they can never seem to follow through) i had to leave early because i felt so shafted. however, my sister received a beautiful army painting for when “she and [army boyfriend] get their first place together.” my uncle is actually getting her a job related to her field as well.
my life always seems to be falling apart little by little. time is going by so fast and i just need a change. i hate constantly feeling alone. i hate feeling like i’m going nowhere. i work so hard, but for what? i pour (most of) my feelings out only for them to be put to the side and left confused.